As photographers, I find we are our own worst critic. I did a photo shoot with my good friend Kat, in Santa Barbara last June. I was still figuring out my style and was fairly new at portraiture. I asked her to do this shoot with me, and she was happy to come along and help me learn/experiment. We lost light a lot faster than I anticipated and the whole shoot felt rushed to me because it was a race against the sun.
I left the shoot thinking I didn’t get anything good and felt a little defeated because I didn’t want to disappoint my friend with these photos I took of her. I found a few I liked, barely going through the gallery because I just thought I did a terrible job, and posted those two images on facebook. I put these images on my backburner because I didn’t believe in my talent at the time and felt like I could’ve done so much better.
Today I saw that Kat changed her profile photo to the one I posted on Facebook, and I got to thinking, I should really go through those images again just to see what was there. I wasn’t expecting to find much, but I came across this image, along with a bunch others I am going to edit soon, and got really emotional. Partly because I miss my friend, and partly because I’m just laughing at myself for thinking this shoot was a bust. I think this is now one of my favorite images, and to think I might not have ever found it because I was so hard on myself is crazy!
I feel like this captures Kat as I know her, a laughing, bubbly, sweet person who has a warm soul and transfers her love onto those that she cares about. I am so happy that Kat believed in me that day, even when I didn’t. This little discovery has prompted me to go back and look through albums of images that I’ve never looked at and see what I find, because I might find another beautiful image like this one. 🙂